Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Spiral Down the Drain

From last post to this is worse.
Mom's physically better, however too unstable to return home at this time. She need some rehab therapy to stregnthen her legs. She is having anxiety MAGNIFIED. She's so scared of staying in the hospital that her anxiety has taken over and she's now weeping with fear, having nightmares that are so real to her but cause her to appear demented to the Frigging nurses who cannot be bothered to, well, nurse.

So, I stayed up at the hospital until she fell asleep, assisted by an anti anxiety med, and am waiting for her paranoid self to "make it til morning"...there is a conspiracy theory fueled by fear a brewing.

The rest of the entourage as mentioned afore?

I plead the 5th.

I've seen actions of others today, some pretty close to me, I am heart sickened. I am now fearful of aging, full of regrets from parenting and more focused on the ones who need me most. My aging mother, who told me tonight she's turning back into a child and it won't stop.


Susan said...

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So sorry for your mother's health problems. Hope things are better soon.

Robin said...

I am so sorry. I am thinking about you.

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry. My mom found a support group for people caring for their parents. It seemed to help her some, but it was still hard. I'll keep praying.